THE CHRONICOLES #3: CHANGE OF SEASONS

I fall most in love with life when fall arrives and then again when it leaves, esp. in NYC. most people enjoy the sun of the summer or the crisp air of the winter, but me...I prefer when the temperature starts to slightly drop and the trees open up and expose the warmest colors, the same shades that inspire my fall wardrobe.

there's something so enlightening in the process of seasons changing, and I think I relate so strongly to it as I'm constantly changing. knowing that the earth thinks it's okay to do so multiple times of year gives me hope in my need to keep evolving.

this year more so than most I am beyond ready for the fall to roll into winter, and then the winter into a new year. I've fought hardships I never thought I'd endure at this age and while at first they made me incredibly bitter and insecure, I've started to see the light at the end of my emotional tunnel.

a quote I stumbled upon last fall has stayed with me and gives me hope as this autumn starts to come to an end and welcome the winter:

"the leaves are about to show us how lovely it is to let the dead things go." 

despite my losses and struggles, I'm learning to remember the importance of them. they truly teach you who you are and just how strong you can be but at the same time, they can break you down bone by bone, muscle by muscle. it's dangerous to get caught in misery's tricky webs, so whenever I caught myself slipping, I'd remind myself that like the seasons, these feelings won't last forever.

I've learned that they'll come and they'll go & one thing will remain, you. much like the trees, I'm ready to let go of what I need to in order to make room for all the beautiful things that are ready to come my way. (and I hope you all are too.)

x, nicole