because it's exactly what I've been doing these last few weeks.
november thru january is tough for me, and I'm hopeful it'll get easier every year and eventually, won't just result in me completely disconnecting. the holidays are hardly enjoyable after the unexpected loss of your father, regardless how long it's been. (two years for me.) in addition, it's also the anniversary of his passing. (also, two years.)
sry for that heaviness...but coming back to NICOLE LEIGH, I want to be as real as possible. the whole "influencer" thing can become toxic. the faćades, the editing, the likes. even though I'm the micro-est of microinfluencers, there's super frustrating moments like understanding new algorithm's, finding strategies that will help me become a microinfluencer, and not to mention, the negative stigma around blogging that so easily gets into your head. sometimes, I couldn't imagine what it takes to deal w/ the stereotyping from a 100k+, 500+, 1mill+ following.
it's no surprise an internet-based industry would run into incredible judgement though; we learned yearsssss ago how easy it is to bully behind a computer screen. now everyone's just doing it behind their smartphone screens. like our parents taught us back then: if you don't have anything nice to say, don't fcking say it. k? ✨